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stuff! [May. 20th, 2012|08:04 pm]
The last month or two, I've been pretty depressed - more than usual anyway. Apart from the London visit, I just didn't enjoy the things anymore that I usually enjoy. I got bored with everything, including myself. And since last week, I had this feeling of absolute uselessness; no-one needs me and I don't contribute to anything or anyone. 
Since this week though, my mood has been somewhat lifted, I'm enjoying my hobbies again and I don't feeel as bored anymore. This may be temporal so I'll enjoy it while it lasts heh. 

Anyway, let's talk about some of the good things:

I haven't mentioned this before, but a couple of months ago my mum bought a new car. A Peugeot 107 to be precise. It's a cute little car. You know I'm not a fan of cars, and definitely not of driving a car, but this one is actually quite fun to drive. I went for short rides with my mum at first, but since then I've used it by myself. Once to my dad, which is an hour away, and to a friend (also about an hour away, using the GPS because it was the first time I went there by car). It was fun! I think I'm a fairly good driver, at least when you consider the last time I drove a car was 8 years ago haha. The only thing I can't do is park the car properly, I really need to practice on that. Otherwise I think I'm going to have fun with it in the next couple of years... 

Alps holiday is confirmed, by the way. In Valloire, looks like it's a pretty nice area. Read some bad things about the hotel, we'll see how that works out. The worst thing (so far!) is that we're going at the same time as Wimbledon, I'll miss the entire tournament except the men's final! Well, the hotel has wifi in the lobby, I'll probably be able to stream matches but most days I'll probably be too tired or just won't feel like sitting in the lobby staring at my screen for hours! Still going to do an effort to at least watch the quarterfinals and semifinals (depending on who's playing of course). But it obviously won't be like watching it at home on tv.
In any case I'm quite happy to be going back to the Alps, after our little failed Austrian experiment last year. 

And I might go to London again for a week or so, but the guy I was staying with has some job trouble, depending on what's happening with that, I may or may not go. I'd really, really love to go, that guy has become a great friend and I might meet up with some other people as well. It should be fun... but I'm going to consider the worst case scenario so I won't be disappointed when I can't go heh. If I can't go I might do a short trip to...somewhere. Or do some more festivals. 

Pukkelpop! In August! After last year's fiasco, I'm keen on going back. Line-up so far isn't anything special though, all stuff I've seen or stuff I'm not really interested in, the only exception being Björk. And I don't like her last album that much anyway... still, I haven't been to a big festival since 2009, so yeah... I was planning on just buying a day ticket for Björk day, but in the end I bought a 3-day ticket. The last day has a lot of famous bands (and day tickets are already sold out), but really nothing that I like, so I just might end up doing 2 days or so. Meh. We'll see. 

Earlier this week, I've been to my first gig in about 6 months -_-
Loooong music talk! )

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...oh hi. [Apr. 23rd, 2012|09:09 pm]
Soooo I thought I'd do an lj update. I feel like talking about random stuff. Twitter no longer does it for me, to be honest. There are some nice people on it of course, but mostly I feel like I'm talking to myself. Well, I feel like I'm talking to myself whenever I do a blog/lj entry, but here I don't have 250 people 'following' me. You know what I mean? Heh. Okay, that was my first rant of the day.

What else. As some of you know, I go to uni. Buut...I'm sort of done with it. I have no motivation at all. It's been like this for about a month now, and it only gets worse. Right now, the only options I see is quitting right now and try to find a job as soon as possible, or riding out the year, putting some effort in learning for the exams, and maybe even do the re-sit in September. Right now I'm leaning towards the second option - I already paid for the books and everything, so why not at least try to go on for a bit? Also, to be really honest, it's part laziness as well - I could do with a relatively slow, stress-free summer, after having the worst summer ever last year.

On to happier things then. I spent a week in London earlier this month. Stayed with friends I met on the internet! Obviously I got drugged, raped, etc. I got what I deserved really. Never trust people on the internet! 
But seriously, it was so much fun, I was really down for a week when I came back from London. I always have this. It's like, when you go to a good gig or something, you're still buzzing from it the day after, but the day after that, you usually feel pretty bad. Withdrawal symptoms!! So I was on drugs all the time in a way, but it was a natural high. And I discovered new things about myself! But that's not something for this journal heh.
As for the 'normal' things we did: we saw that  'Passion of Jesus' thing on Trafalgar Square. We had to sit on the ground for 2 hours - Jesus wasn't the only one suffering!! It was sort of fun, well put together, the guy who played Jesus did a great job. I could've done with less blood and suffering, but that's christianity for you I guess. Still don't get that - violence on tv is bad, but Jesus all beaten up, suffering and dying is okay to show the kids. 

And I did meet up with one of my friends from twitter!! The awesome @ztardust - the guy who I have a pretend-crush on, I talked about this last year I think. And he still wanted to meet up with me! I told him I'm horribly boring in person, but he still insisted. He's a really nice guy - and handsome!! - it was nice meeting up with him even though we didn't do much else than randomly walk  places and talk a bit. I had to think about my meetup with Jen a lot that day heh. 
Didn't really do much else, I had one day of 'freedom' where I was on my own, walked around central London a bit, did a fairly short stop at the British Museum, got caught in a thunderstorm, but I still did my little 'London walk' (about 1,5-2h in which you see most of the big London touristy things), even added a new route to it of sorts. Exciting! 
Also, now that I've done both the Louvre and the British Museum - the Louvre wins. Easily. Even if you have to pay for it. British Museum feels more...clinical and sterile, of sorts, while the Louvre feels more...alive and vibrant. If you know what I mean. Of course the Louvre is both museum and art gallery, but still. I enjoyed my time in the Louvre more than either time I went to the British Museum. 

I hope to go back this summer, actually. It's weird how I'm getting used to London, it's like I've been using the tube for years now. Sometimes I no longer consider myself a tourist, honestly! I actually wouldn't mind living and working in a place like Hounslow (where I stayed), it's far from central London but still in tube-range. 

Some pictures from London are in the usual place. There aren't a lot, because I forgot to take along an sd card so I could only rely on the internal memory...I could've taken quite a few more but I already have pictures of pretty much everything. Random architectural obsession of the day: the Royal Court of Justice. Such an awesome building. 

And unlike last year, there's a good chance I'll be going to the Alps again with my dad. Last year we did a one-week vacation in Austria which kind of sucked, so now I'm looking forward to seeing mountains again! Proper mountains. Last week I saw this awesome documentary 'Beyond the summits' (see the trailer here), it had some absolutely stunning footage of the Alps. It also helped it was in HD. But really, it was impressive, also how strong that woman must be mentally. Good stuff. 

Last week, I broke my laptop screen!!! Repairing it costs almost as much as a new laptop, so... Right now, I'm using it as my room-laptop, I just hook it up to the tv in my room. And I use my old (2006...) laptop in the living room when I'm watching tv. We also bought a new PC tower a few months ago as a replacement for our old tower, that used to belong to my sister, I think that one was from 2003 or something. New tower is awesome, it was very cheap, but it has a pretty fast processor and a good graphics card, so I use that one a lot to play games on it heh. So until the old laptop breaks down, I probably won't be buying a new one. 

Still have more random things to talk about, but this is long enough for one entry I think! 
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2012 [Jan. 1st, 2012|01:16 am]
Happy New Year to all my livejournal readers!



Yes, to both of you!
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dreams [Dec. 26th, 2011|02:06 pm]
I've had a very active dream week, but the dream I had two days ago is probably my "dream of the year" heh.

The dream was set in a steampunk world. There's no electricity, everything runs on steam. There are weird zeppelins in the sky (and a lot of them), and the world looks mostly brown.
But apparently, the world is ending, and no-one knows what to do. At some point, scientists discover this yellow-golden alien liquid. They experiment with it, and find out it can be used as an energy source. It produces some kind of weird side effect that makes everything look grey. The scientists continue to exeriment, and put some of the liquid in a human being. They find out that it's actually a living thing, and can live as a parasite (or symbiont) in a human being. Of course, that causes some of the scientists to worry about the effect on humans, does it influence the brain, and therefor the thoughts and actions of human as well?
I vaguely remember something about helping a scientist with something, but I don't know what. I think he wanted to warn the world about the dangers of the liquid, and that maybe we should stop using it altogether. There was definitely a part where we were being bullied by the government to keep quiet. Then for some reason, I end up in a coma, and I wake up 7 years later. The first person I see tells me that the world is saved, and everything is right again. He says I should look outside. I do that, and I see.......the world as it is now!! Everything is "normal", no more steam machines, no more zeppelins, everything has normal colours again.
I wander the streets, thinking about why everything is the way it is now. Is this because of the alien liquid? Did they put the alien liquid in everyone, and has some sort of collective consciousness made us aware of a solution to save the world? Do -I- have that liquid in me? Is it controlling my actions and thought process? Is the world as it is now the way the aliens want it to be? Are they preparing us for invasion/harvesting?

...The end!

This was a great dream, not just the way it played out, but the atmosphere as well. At the start, it felt mainly melancholic, but also defeatism about the world ending, especially when everything turns grey. And also paranoia about the alien liquid. I also love how the colours shifted in the dream, first brown, then grey, then "normal" colours. Of course, many elements in the dream are taking from different sci fi stories, but still, they blended well together. First thing I had to think about was They Live, which has aliens living on earth and influencing us without us humans realising it, and turning the world into their world by polluting it. Great film, it also has that paranoid and almost end-of-the-world feeling.


Then last night, I had some shorter dreams. I can only remember random bits but they were very exciting. In one, I'm breaking into buildings and escape without being seen. People know I'm doing this, and I become some sort of celebrity.
Then in another one I'm playing a tower defense game, but it combines elements from different games, and it's so good, really exciting to play.
There's one set in the mountains (I think I have one of those every night!), it was a fairly long dream, but I can't remember much of it. Anyway, I saw bigfoot! Or, the wampa from Star Wars, I don't know. Anyway, it wasn't dangerous, and I only saw it for a second. I told this to my group and most of them seemed to believe me. I think it was actually the point of our expedition; to look for rare creatures. There was another weird thing in this dream, but I can't remember if it was another creature or something else.

I should really write down more dreams, I stopped doing this since last year or so. I blame twitter.
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A weekend in Paris! [Dec. 19th, 2011|12:37 am]
So last month I went to Paris for 3 days. It was good.
Detailed report! )
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reading material [Oct. 24th, 2011|01:43 am]
Okay, time to link you to some entries:

vacation/Austria talk
film reviews
summer cinema reviews
US Open draw talk
US Open post mortem
(of course, to make things easy you can always just follow my other blog)

Proper update soon. Ish. Which means within 3 months nowadays...
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(no subject) [Oct. 3rd, 2011|01:42 am]
Holy crap, this is from my eggiwegs entry, and only now I realise I actually made a pac-man. 

 


No seriously...doesn't it look like pac-man? A sort of...scary mouth pac-man? 

Ah screw it, I'm off to bed. 
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austria trip [Oct. 3rd, 2011|01:33 am]
Yes, we (my dad and I) went to Austria for a week. Organised hiking trip by bus. Destination: Sankt Kanzian am Klopeiner See. Google Earth it, or something. If you're too lazy: it's in the south of Austria, not that far from the Slovenian border. 

Das Wetter!
We didn't have rain at all (well, a few drops in the evening), which makes it our most successful Austrain holiday ever. Of course, usually we're higher up, and the Karinthian weather is apparently influenced by the mediterranean. Anyway, my dad (and lots of other people) complained about the heat, but honestly, I didn't think it was THAT bad. Yes, it was probably around 30°C for most of the afternoon, but I somehow wasn't that bothered with it. I usually hate it, but idunno. Maybe I was finally happy to have some warmth, after a very gray summer. 

Mahlzeit!
The food was alright, very much so. One thing that bothered me was that they gave us A LOT of meat with every meal, at least twice as much as what I'm used to. I ate most of it (actually, apart from the opening night, I ate it all!), but I could feel my body wasn't used to this heh. Also - but this seems to be common - the food was extremely salty. Which resulted in us drinking a lot, and then waking up once or twice a night to pee -_- 

Wir marchieren!
The walks were...a bore. Most of it was on regular roads, or concrete paths. I walked the first two days with my heavy "mountain"  boots, but, obviously, there were no mountains. It was horribly flat and unexciting. So, for the third walk, I decided to go with my regular shoes, and guess what? Suddenly they go into the woods, and onto narrow rocky paths. But it was no problem for me actually, I have good regular shoes :) And on our 'free' day (without the group) with did another forest-y, mountain-y (well, hill-y, it was only a height difference of 200m) hike. We took our sweet time and actually rested a lot. I think we were both happy to have some peace and quiet on our walks ahaha. 
Last day was boring, because we couldn't go far, but still had a lot of time to kill (we got kicked out of the hotel at 10, and the bus only left at 4PM, where's the sense in that?). Oh well.
Oh, and it was pretty fun that on day one, we started with around 35 hikers, and on day 3 there were only about 20 left. 

Nationaalsozialismus! 
You know my dad and I are rather antisocial, so we kept to ourselves for most of the time. That is, until my dad started talking to some other guy, and they developed a 4-day long bromance. It was pretty cute. Especially because the guy was a biker, lots of tattoos, ear pierced. Stuff my dad hates with a passion (...or maybe he's secretly jealous of them haha). But they had fun talking about racist stuff, and I noticed the guy actually had a swastika tattoo ahaha. Pretty small, but noticable. For a tattoo-obsessed person like me at least. When I told my dad about it, he said "oh, well, maybe he was in a biker gang and had to do it as an initiation or something." See, he was already looking for excuses and trying to defend his buddy! Ha. 
Rest of the group: eh. I think I was the youngest one there, the average age must've been 50 or something. No joke. 

Kriegwunden!
Every time we go on holiday, -something- happens to me in a physical, not so nice way. This time, on the second walk, my knee started bothering me. The inside of my knee. Now, I had that last year as well, but this time it was really very noticeable, and I definitely thought of skipping the hike the next day. Told my dad about where it hurt. "There's nothing important there!" Well, okay, guess it's all in my head. Anyway, it still troubled me the next day, but like I said, I started wearing my normal shoes, and after walking for about an hour...the pain was gone! So weird. And it didn't come back, so it really had something to do with my "good" (but super-heavy) hiking boots. 
...except the pain did come back,  I sometimes still feel it when I wake up. Well, it's only half-pain, if you know what I mean, but it's definitely in the same place, and I'm half-worried about it. I'm guessing it's a ligament or something, that isn't 100% right anymore. Too scared to go to a doctor about it, because he'll obviously say it's all in my head as well heh. No, but, yeah, but, you know. (fake edit: this half-pain lasted about a week, everything's fine now!)

Freundlichkeit!
 I have to say, one thing that surprised me was how friendly the locals were. Austria has the reputation to be somewhat, you know...facist, especially when it comes to non-Austrians... but I guess they don't mind tourists that much. Like, several times I stood at a zebra crossing, thinking "oh, after those 2 or 3 cars I can cross over". But guess what? The first car almost always stopped to let me cross! I mean, it should be like this all the time, I know, but living in a "big" city, close to a busy road, I'm not used to it at all. 
Not just that, but when we were out in the group, we're basically creating a nuissance for everyone, but cars still let us pass, locals waved at us and said good morning and stuff, it was like...is this real life? Heh. 

Grüssgott!
I had a discussion with my dad about this. I take great offense with that word. Especially since it's used in the imperative form, they basically tell you to "greet god!!", or else!!! Compare that to, say, an arab, who says "peace be with you" as a greeting. So I wonder, who's the religious aggressor here??? Obviously my dad, notorious arab/middle east hater, said something like "yeah they say peace be with you, then stab you in the back!!!" Aah, it's always fun talking with my dad about things like this. 

Wir glotzen TV!
TV was even worse than in France, I guess - no cycling, no F1, and most importantly - no US Open!!!! I followed the live score of the semis on my phone (was still on the bus on the way to Austria when they played), and learned the results from the finals through teletext (at least they had that!) the next day. There's more about that in my US Open post-mortem.
There wasn't much on tv on the whole - lots of US series though, Bones, House, The Mentalist, CSI (obviously!), etc. And Transformers was on at some point, and some other films. Oh well. As for other entertainment, I thought I had the entire season 6 on my hard drive, but I didn't, so I was able to watch just one episode. My ipod kept me entertained the most I guess, with my random addiction to Tiny Tower, and the fact that it, you know, plays music and stuff. 


So anyway, general consensus was that it wasn't a bad vacation, but the long bus ride was annoying, and hiking in group just isn't our thing. So, next year, we'll probably be going to the Alps again, or at least have a 2-week holiday somewhere. 
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lj [Oct. 1st, 2011|12:00 pm]
Oh hey guys, what's up?

I have...3 entries coming up, will try to do at least 2 of them this weekend. Meanwhile, have you seen my new blog? It's awesome and stuff. http://timxtended.blogspot.com/

Still haven't decided whether I should just double post everything, or abandon lj altogether. But how could I leave? There are so many great memories here. Like cooking with Tem ("testsubject doesn't like getting sticky, gooey substances all over his face."), or, one of my favourite entries, Ronald Weasley The Third.
(feel free to go through the archives in search of other great entries. Well, I know you won't, so, whatever)
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you know I have to post this every summer [Aug. 30th, 2011|08:46 pm]


I vowed this wouldn't be
another lost summer
I've looked around but I can't see
that old time summer

it's still hot but I look at what I've got
and all I feel is number
I guess it's too late to plant those seeds
it's not worth it to pull the weeds
they'll just die; like I'm doing inside

my brother and I were the best of friends
more than just brothers but now I pretend

is it a crutch? that I expect so much?
I promised myself I'd be strong this year
but here I am again filled with summer tears
and the fish ain't biting and I'm through fighting
the same situation the same frustrations
'cause summers almost gone
the love I planned to sing about never came along
and I can't figure out where I belong
but ever year i sing the same old song
where's that old time summer?
it's another lost summer
another lost summer
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